Shame

Kate was feeling lonely. Awfully lonely.

She was out of work. She had no real friends she could turn to. She couldn't even remember the last time she was on a date. Or had actual sex, for that matter.

Now she needed it. Badly.

Of course, some tender loving care would do her good, too. But she had no hope of getting any of that.

She thought about it for the longest time, weighing her situation.

She knew there were places she could go to pick up someone. A one-night stand, it would be. Lots of women do that, she thought. It's no big deal, she kept trying to convince herself.

Yet she couldn't get herself to do that. She had tried in the past. The one time she came close to giving in, he didn't want to. He... Angel. She would have done it with him. Now she was relieved she hadn't as it would have been really weird after all she came to learn about him.

Yes, that was the problem with the whole idea of doing it with a stranger. What if the guy turned out to be some kind of freak?

No, she knew she was making up excuses because she just didn't want to do that. Of course, she could pick up a freak, but that was beside the point. The whole point was she was not built that way. She wanted more from sex than just pleasure... or relief. After all, she could have that on her own.

Sigh... She knew where that left her. It was the same place she had been so many times before. Her own bed. By herself.

Was she the loneliest and most pitiful creature on Earth or what?

Kate was almost there, on the brink of orgasm, when she heard the bell ringing.

Great, perfect timing!, she thought, exasperated. Now what?

She was certain it must be Mrs. O'Dell, a widow who lived across the hall and had taken to herself to watch over Kate, lately. Kate actually enjoyed the fact that this nice old lady would go out of her way to bake her cookies and make her feel appreciated, but this was definitely not the time for it.

She considered not answering the door, but that would be rude. As much as Kate liked to seem tough when working, she couldn't help her good-natured heart when it came to people like Mrs. O'Dell.

So, she made up a quick excuse to give her neighbor while she wrapped herself in a robe and went to the front door, expecting to get rid of the problem fast so she could go back to more important business.

Only, to her alarm, it was not Mrs. O'Dell who was there. It was Angel!

"Good evening, Kate! May I come in?", he asked.

"Oh... Uh, no. I mean, what are you doing here, Angel?", she sounded harsh and that was not what she meant, but it was really awkward to see him there after spending the last half an hour fantasizing about him.

Oh, yeah! Much to her own chagrin, he was the one who always came to her mind when she started having sexual dreams, be them night or day-dreams.

And now he was there, right in front of her. And did he look good!

Angel was obviously unsettled by the reception she gave him. He wasn't expecting a particularly warm welcome, but this? What had he done to her this time?

"Nothing special, really. I just thought I'd come around and say hello", he answered after a while.

Kate didn't really know what to do. She would have been able to get rid of Mrs. O'Dell quite easily, since the old lady was always careful not to bother her too much. But this was Angel and he didn't live across the hall! Telling him to beat it, after he had come all the way to her place just to visit, would be the best way to make sure he would never, ever show his face there again.

So she invited him in...

Angel sat on the couch and looked at Kate.

She was still standing, seeming restless.

"Aren't you going to sit down?", he asked her.

"Hmm, no. I'm ok like this", she said, leaning on the couch's arm.

Kate tried her best to make small talk, but it wasn't easy. In the hurry to answer the door and get back to what she was doing, she hadn't taken the dildo from her pussy. And she was wearing nothing but a light robe...

She couldn't possibly sit down or even get too close to him. She was so afraid he'd notice something, she began to shiver.

Angel hadn't failed to notice the robe, evidently. He would have to be blind not to notice. And he couldn't help wondering if she had anything on underneath it.

Her nipples became hard with the shivering, putting at least part of his doubt to rest.

He began to notice other things as well... The scent coming from her made it clear to him something had been happening not long ago.

"Am I interrupting something, Kate?" It suddenly occurred to him she might have someone waiting in the bedroom. A thought that made him surprisingly... jealous!

"No! What could you be interrupting?", she said a little too vehemently to sound true. "Well, ok. I'll tell you what... I was going to take a shower when you arrived. I don't mean to be impolite, but it makes me really uncomfortable to be here with you wearing just a robe like this." Not to mention the dildo, she thought.

"Well, you could have just said that, Kate." He tried to come across as understanding, but he was very upset.

With that, he raised from the couch and started towards the door.

Kate couldn't help a sigh of relief, seeing him leave.

She tried to walk him to the door, but she couldn't go as fast as him due to the fear she felt of letting the dildo escape from its place.

Angel knew something was wrong. He couldn't smell another man anywhere, but it was clear to him Kate was sexually aroused. And he realized he was aroused too.

He turned around, all of a sudden, and she ended up bumping into him.

He held her and looked deep inside her eyes.

She was already uneasy and feeling his hard-on growing against her belly surely didn't help.

Kate would have loved this to happen an hour ago, but right now she was too ashamed of what he would think if he found out about the dildo.

Angel had other problems in mind. The ever-threatening curse being, of course, the worst of them.

Despite all of that, though, they both felt the growing urge to go at it as soon as possible. They kept looking at each other as if they would find some miraculous answer to their problems.

They didn't.

What they did, instead, was to start kissing passionately.

Angel lifted Kate slightly above the ground, just enough to carry her back to the couch.

Once there, he proceeded to open her robe while he kept kissing her deeply.

He played with her ears, he caressed all of her curves, he fondled and sucked her breasts as only a vampire could...

Everything was going fine up to the moment when he moved his hand down, between her legs.

At first, he seemed puzzled with his discovery. Then, a smile of understanding lit his face.

Kate wanted to die. There she was, completely naked, with a dildo buried into her, in front of this fully clothed guy she had been fantasizing about for almost two years now, in spite of herself.

To make things worse, it occurred to Angel to grab the dildo and get it out of her so he could take a look at it.

"Wow, you like them big!", he said, quite Angelus-like.

Now, that made it. Kate got quickly on her feet and raced towards the bedroom, leaving a perplexed Angel behind.

He soon realized he had been as tactless as possible, maybe more.

So he used all of his vampire speed to catch up with her before she locked the door.

"Kate, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to offend you!", his eyes were begging for mercy.

She was still fighting to close the door, trying to shut him outside. But he was too strong and definitely not willing to let things as they were.

It crossed his mind this might be for the best. Going on with it posed too many dangers, in fact. Yet, leaving now without setting it right would mean losing whatever connection he ever had with Kate.

So he kept talking and talking, holding the door open, until she gave up trying to close it.

Kate walked to the bed and threw herself on it, face down.

Angel followed her and began stroking her hair as he continued apologizing.

"Seriously, I never thought for a minute there you'd feel offended, Kate."

"I'm not offended... I'm embarrassed, don't you see?", her voice was down to a whisper.

"Embarrassed? Why?", he was confused now.

"Because... Oh, this wasn't meant to be like this!", she was sobbing between words.

Angel lay down beside her and got hold of her chin, making her face him.

"There's no reason to be embarrassed, Katie."

The way he said her name sent shivers down her spine. It was so sweet, so affectionate...

"I thought it was very sexy, myself. Not that I needed any more arousing..."

She looked at him, unbelievingly. She felt like such a loser, having to resort to a fake penis because she couldn't get some of the real stuff. Yet, he found it sexy... and arousing! Go figure!

He started kissing her again. Only now he made it softly, careful not to scare her away.

In no time, they were all over each other again.

When Kate was fully aroused, Angel began to undress.

Then he saw the dildo lying there. He had brought it with him when he followed Kate to her room. And now he had an idea as how to use it.

While still undressing, Angel grabbed the dildo and started to slowly insert it into her. Kate didn't seem to like it until he put his mouth over her clit and began to nibble at it while pumping the dildo in and out.

By the time he took it out, Kate was begging to be fucked. And he gladly obliged.

He was so aroused himself that it was hard to keep from cumming right away. Only looking at her and seeing how beautiful she was, her face seeming to glow from a series of small orgasms that made her tremble in his arms, had the effect of making him slow down his pace and keep it going for more every time.

After a while, he decided to change positions and have her ride him. She was more than happy to comply.

When he sat down with her still riding him, Kate seemed to be in a frenzy. She could barely speak... Yet, feeling his lips on her neck, she murmured:

"Drink me, Angel!"

He looked at her, surprised at her words. But a mere glance from her was enough to dissipate his doubts... She meant it.

After studying her neck for a brief moment, Angel sank his fangs into it.

The sensations he got from drinking her along with all he was already feeling brought him to a huge orgasm. He didn't try to hold it this time as he feared he might lose control and drain her.

In spite of the pain, Kate loved to feel Angel like that. She abandoned herself to him, letting him take full possession of her body. She had never belonged to anyone so completely and it was an awesome feeling, indeed.

Only, then, she fainted...

Angel was desperate, mad with fear.

Deep down inside him, he knew he hadn't drank enough to put her in danger. But he was still worried sick even after she regained conscience.

She was exhausted from all the love-making and that combined with the blood loss made her pass out.

She was still shaky, yet the smile on her face made it clear she was more than fine.

Angel started to relax, seeing the way she looked at him.

He suddenly realized if it hadn't been for her swoon, he might be in deep trouble. They might be in deep trouble.

As he lay there, cuddling her until she fell asleep, Angel kept wondering if they'd ever be able to give it another shot